Hallelujah! Finals are over and it is officially summer! The week came to a close with three papers (one that was spectacular, one that was good but short on the page count, and one that was a complete and utter disaster on paper), one physics final (thank the lord above for freebie questions and my parents for being so geeky that I knew several answers not because I truly knew the answer, but because I knew Howard Wolowitz is not a real space scientist regardless if I knew who any of the other options were), and me passing all of my classes. I even S/Ued (pass/no pass) two classes for what turned out to be no reason since I got Bs in both of my own accord. Whoo hoo! Go me!
Now, those of you who know me well know that I actually really like school and I am good at it, so why the excitement over barely passing four classes? This year was hard. I struggled every term and fell behind every term and got dragged down by the thought that maybe I was just one big disappointment to her. I even have nightmares where she comes to me and tells me how much I suck. For the record though, she doesn't actually say suck. She hated that word. This year forced me to dig deep to even keep moving forward but I hope I made her proud by doing so.
I moved out of my dorm, which was bitter sweet (see last post). Nathan and I have officially moved into our new apartment with some friends of ours just in time for the shower to fail. Apparently the plumber who did the shower when the interior was redone two years ago messed up big time and we are paying the price now. Call the landlord. Yes he will bring in a plumber to fix that. Yes they will likely have to bust in part of the shower and the wall to fix it right. Great. Oh well. I got a summer gym membership so I will just shower at the gym. Wrong. Apparently Dixon doesn't run hot water during the summer. I guess I will be journeying home sooner than expected.
Speaking of moving in and out, it is all bittersweet. Last year, mom and dad helped me move into my dorm and we even took some cute pictures together. This year I moved in alone. Mom never even got to see this dorm room and it was a nice one. I am sure it would have gotten a comment or story about the dorm room she lived in. Now that we are settled off campus, I am starting to realize that she will never see this place either. Or my first house. This past weekend was also commencement and I was forced to realize she won't see me graduate from college either. This is not aided by the fact that the OSU beaver store insists on carrying OSU mom gear all year round everywhere you turn and for some reason, I go to it every time before I realize there is no one to buy it for.
Today I did some wedding planning and was caught off guard by the RSVP card marked Wolf party of 2. Shouldn't that number be 3? I am so glad that this trying school year is over, but I know this summer will be strange and different. There will be the wedding without mom. There will be no swimming with mom. No gardening or window washing. No long talks or outdoor dinners. No lists of things to do. I plan to spend a lot of time in Corvallis this summer and I have finally realized that the main reason for that is because this summer just won't be the same and even though it will be filled with withouts, maybe I can make some new summer memories between Eugene and Corvallis.
Until next time,
Karina
P.S. TMI AHEAD! READ AHEAD IF YOU DARE! Today I woke up with every symptom you can possibly have of a UTI. Great. Off to the doctor. They say pee in this cup. Cue flashback. The last time I had a UTI was probably 7 or 8 years ago and mom and I spent 3 hours in the doctors office because I was having a full scale meltdown about peeing in a cup. I hate peeing in a cup. Needless to say, she was not happy. Today, I peed in a cup. And paid for my own antibiotics. I guess I'm a real adult now. I hope you're proud momma. I'm trying my best, even if all that is is peeing in a cup without crying and/or stomping my feet (and I will not confirm nor deny that there was actual feet stomping all those years ago. I could be just saying that for dramatic effect. You don't know. :p).
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