Hallelujah! Finals are over and it is officially summer! The week came to a close with three papers (one that was spectacular, one that was good but short on the page count, and one that was a complete and utter disaster on paper), one physics final (thank the lord above for freebie questions and my parents for being so geeky that I knew several answers not because I truly knew the answer, but because I knew Howard Wolowitz is not a real space scientist regardless if I knew who any of the other options were), and me passing all of my classes. I even S/Ued (pass/no pass) two classes for what turned out to be no reason since I got Bs in both of my own accord. Whoo hoo! Go me!
Now, those of you who know me well know that I actually really like school and I am good at it, so why the excitement over barely passing four classes? This year was hard. I struggled every term and fell behind every term and got dragged down by the thought that maybe I was just one big disappointment to her. I even have nightmares where she comes to me and tells me how much I suck. For the record though, she doesn't actually say suck. She hated that word. This year forced me to dig deep to even keep moving forward but I hope I made her proud by doing so.
I moved out of my dorm, which was bitter sweet (see last post). Nathan and I have officially moved into our new apartment with some friends of ours just in time for the shower to fail. Apparently the plumber who did the shower when the interior was redone two years ago messed up big time and we are paying the price now. Call the landlord. Yes he will bring in a plumber to fix that. Yes they will likely have to bust in part of the shower and the wall to fix it right. Great. Oh well. I got a summer gym membership so I will just shower at the gym. Wrong. Apparently Dixon doesn't run hot water during the summer. I guess I will be journeying home sooner than expected.
Speaking of moving in and out, it is all bittersweet. Last year, mom and dad helped me move into my dorm and we even took some cute pictures together. This year I moved in alone. Mom never even got to see this dorm room and it was a nice one. I am sure it would have gotten a comment or story about the dorm room she lived in. Now that we are settled off campus, I am starting to realize that she will never see this place either. Or my first house. This past weekend was also commencement and I was forced to realize she won't see me graduate from college either. This is not aided by the fact that the OSU beaver store insists on carrying OSU mom gear all year round everywhere you turn and for some reason, I go to it every time before I realize there is no one to buy it for.
Today I did some wedding planning and was caught off guard by the RSVP card marked Wolf party of 2. Shouldn't that number be 3? I am so glad that this trying school year is over, but I know this summer will be strange and different. There will be the wedding without mom. There will be no swimming with mom. No gardening or window washing. No long talks or outdoor dinners. No lists of things to do. I plan to spend a lot of time in Corvallis this summer and I have finally realized that the main reason for that is because this summer just won't be the same and even though it will be filled with withouts, maybe I can make some new summer memories between Eugene and Corvallis.
Until next time,
Karina
P.S. TMI AHEAD! READ AHEAD IF YOU DARE! Today I woke up with every symptom you can possibly have of a UTI. Great. Off to the doctor. They say pee in this cup. Cue flashback. The last time I had a UTI was probably 7 or 8 years ago and mom and I spent 3 hours in the doctors office because I was having a full scale meltdown about peeing in a cup. I hate peeing in a cup. Needless to say, she was not happy. Today, I peed in a cup. And paid for my own antibiotics. I guess I'm a real adult now. I hope you're proud momma. I'm trying my best, even if all that is is peeing in a cup without crying and/or stomping my feet (and I will not confirm nor deny that there was actual feet stomping all those years ago. I could be just saying that for dramatic effect. You don't know. :p).
Monday, June 15, 2015
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Finals Week Blues
I have been sitting in the MU so long that the HUT shuttle has come through twice. The HUT shuttle runs through Eugene, up through Corvallis, and also stops in Albany, Salem, and Woodburn collecting passengers and dropping them off at the Portland airport and vice versa. If you take into account the fact that Portland is at least an hour and a half from Corvallis, there are three stops from here to Portland plus loading and unloading time, and traffic, I've been here a while. On the plus side, I only have one paper left and one test. Also a plus? In only one class have I had to calculate the minimum grade I need on the final to pass the class. Science is not my thing. Don't judge.
After this hell week is over, it will be unpacking in the new apartment and then diving head first into wedding planning. I had a dress fitting yesterday and luckily there isn't too much to be done. Everyone including myself has found shoes and even Karissa found a dress. But there will be plenty about wedding planning as the weeks go on. As the school year comes to a close, I have been reflecting.
Mom passed away the day before school started. I took a week off and then made my grand reappearance. Needless to say, I almost didn't pass those classes, but I did. Yesterday I finished cleaning out my dorm and for some reason I was sad. I think I was sad because that room was my safe place for nine months. I cried there and I mourned there. I learned there. This year I learned a lot. I learned that even though it is hard, you can go on living. I learned that even when you lose someone, you still have people. Even though it is hard to do wedding things without her, I still enjoy them. What do you know? I actually learned something at school this year and I think she would be proud.
Until next time,
Karina
After this hell week is over, it will be unpacking in the new apartment and then diving head first into wedding planning. I had a dress fitting yesterday and luckily there isn't too much to be done. Everyone including myself has found shoes and even Karissa found a dress. But there will be plenty about wedding planning as the weeks go on. As the school year comes to a close, I have been reflecting.
Mom passed away the day before school started. I took a week off and then made my grand reappearance. Needless to say, I almost didn't pass those classes, but I did. Yesterday I finished cleaning out my dorm and for some reason I was sad. I think I was sad because that room was my safe place for nine months. I cried there and I mourned there. I learned there. This year I learned a lot. I learned that even though it is hard, you can go on living. I learned that even when you lose someone, you still have people. Even though it is hard to do wedding things without her, I still enjoy them. What do you know? I actually learned something at school this year and I think she would be proud.
Until next time,
Karina
Monday, June 1, 2015
Chicken Salad On Challah
Sorry once again for my long absence. Today marks the start of dead week leading up to finals week and capping off with moving out of the dorms. Needless to say, things are busy here in Corvallis.
As some of you may know, I have been blessed, or cursed, with a larger than average bust size. Yay me! Lucky for me though, mom was also a part of this group and when we moved to Eugene, she stumbled on an incredible gift…Ruth's Foundations. Ruth's sells bras and swimsuits for those of us who laugh in the face of Target bikinis sized XL. Every summer mom and I would journey to Ruth's for a swimsuit. Every swimsuit I own came from Ruth's now that I think of it. I have also purchased at least 3 strapless bras from them. This past weekend I took a trip to Ruth's because I needed yet another strapless bra to wear under my wedding dress. It was quite a shock to walk into Ruth's without her. It was even more of a shock to have one of the incredible women that works there hook the 10+ hooks instead of her. And let me tell you, you really don't appreciate your parents until you have to buy your own stuff. $100+ dollars for a single bra later and I was out of there, a little down in the dumps.
Next to Ruth's is a great bakery/deli called Barry's. I highly recommend it. Nathan was complaining about missing breakfast so we stopped in or lunch. Another shock. After nearly every trip to Ruth's, and between the two of us, there were a lot, mom and I ate at Barry's. Always the same thing; half a chicken salad sandwich on challah and a bowl of matzo ball soup. It was disheartening to eat it alone. Nathan was there, but he had pastrami and that's not nearly the same, but much love to him anyway for enduring the 45 minutes in Ruth's.
This weekend was filled with things that I once did with mom and it made me realize how many more there will be. She won't be at my wedding. She wasn't at my bridal shower. I miss her a lot. However, I do get to honor her in many ways. I honor her when I shop at Ruth's. I honor her by writing and addressing all of my shower thank you notes in a very timely manner. I honor her by doing things I have never done before. I hope I honor her with this blog. I honor her with chicken salad on challah.
Speaking of things I have never done before, I was elected brotherhood chair in our chapter of AKPsi. This means I will be in charge of selecting monthly award winners, writing thank you cards to all of our guest speakers, and planning fun little get togethers to bring us closer together as members. Go me! I even won despite the one con being that I was not very approachable. Can you believe that? I'm approachable dammit! I hope mom would be proud. And I have her to thank for my thank you note writing skills. They are off the charts :)
Until next time,
Karina
P.S. I do not recommend seeing B.o.B in concert. He is absolutely atrocious and likes to endorse smoking. In an earlier post, I commented on $5 being a great deal to see him. I lied. Free would have been too expensive for crap like that. Save your money.
As some of you may know, I have been blessed, or cursed, with a larger than average bust size. Yay me! Lucky for me though, mom was also a part of this group and when we moved to Eugene, she stumbled on an incredible gift…Ruth's Foundations. Ruth's sells bras and swimsuits for those of us who laugh in the face of Target bikinis sized XL. Every summer mom and I would journey to Ruth's for a swimsuit. Every swimsuit I own came from Ruth's now that I think of it. I have also purchased at least 3 strapless bras from them. This past weekend I took a trip to Ruth's because I needed yet another strapless bra to wear under my wedding dress. It was quite a shock to walk into Ruth's without her. It was even more of a shock to have one of the incredible women that works there hook the 10+ hooks instead of her. And let me tell you, you really don't appreciate your parents until you have to buy your own stuff. $100+ dollars for a single bra later and I was out of there, a little down in the dumps.
Next to Ruth's is a great bakery/deli called Barry's. I highly recommend it. Nathan was complaining about missing breakfast so we stopped in or lunch. Another shock. After nearly every trip to Ruth's, and between the two of us, there were a lot, mom and I ate at Barry's. Always the same thing; half a chicken salad sandwich on challah and a bowl of matzo ball soup. It was disheartening to eat it alone. Nathan was there, but he had pastrami and that's not nearly the same, but much love to him anyway for enduring the 45 minutes in Ruth's.
This weekend was filled with things that I once did with mom and it made me realize how many more there will be. She won't be at my wedding. She wasn't at my bridal shower. I miss her a lot. However, I do get to honor her in many ways. I honor her when I shop at Ruth's. I honor her by writing and addressing all of my shower thank you notes in a very timely manner. I honor her by doing things I have never done before. I hope I honor her with this blog. I honor her with chicken salad on challah.
Speaking of things I have never done before, I was elected brotherhood chair in our chapter of AKPsi. This means I will be in charge of selecting monthly award winners, writing thank you cards to all of our guest speakers, and planning fun little get togethers to bring us closer together as members. Go me! I even won despite the one con being that I was not very approachable. Can you believe that? I'm approachable dammit! I hope mom would be proud. And I have her to thank for my thank you note writing skills. They are off the charts :)
Until next time,
Karina
P.S. I do not recommend seeing B.o.B in concert. He is absolutely atrocious and likes to endorse smoking. In an earlier post, I commented on $5 being a great deal to see him. I lied. Free would have been too expensive for crap like that. Save your money.
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